Am I being okay?

I'm not seeking out a diagnosis or anything like that. But I don't know how I come off. I don't know if I'm trying to be too funny or dramatic. I don't know if I'm being condescending or rude.

I don't know if I'm making good points or if I'm inconsistent with my reasoning.

Sometimes I just want someone to tell me what I'm like because I can't tell and I don't want to be shitty to people. Is that just anxiety? Or is this me being neurodiverse too?

I'm convinced all the time that I'm being shitty to people or a bully.

People familiar with me here, could you tell me a little bit what I'm like or what vibe I'm giving off? Is my writing disjointed or difficult to read?

What do you do when you feel this way?